A Letter to You
Hello my name is Kate Lalane and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for checking out my site. Let me start by saying that when it comes to weight fluctuations and poor food choices I’ve been there, done that, and am going through it again. I want to tell you my story because through my own experience I have come to realize that feeling good is a process, a personal journey, and it is going to be ok. So, here it goes…
10 years ago I topped the scale at 160lbs and at my 5’5 I wasn’t comfortable. (Let’s keep in mind 5 years earlier I was 30lbs less.)
So what happened? … Life did!
I actually lost weight after high school finding a new love/addiction to kickboxing. But being 19, I drank often and ate whatever and whenever I wanted. When I moved away for college I embraced the “Freshman 15” everyone talks about. I wasn’t kickboxing and was only doing minimal workouts at the campus gym. I maintained my eating and drinking habits so, naturally, the bad habits caught up to me.
After graduation, I moved to Vancouver and it took me a year to find a kickboxing gym that I liked. In the meantime, I kept up my regular eating and drinking habits and I gained even more. In the summer of 2005 I went to Las Vegas. After getting back and looking at the photos (before we used our phones for everything!) I knew I needed a change.
I decided I would cut out a bunch of foods and downsized my calories big time. In less than a year I lost the weight. Sounds great, right? Wrong. I was starving and within 2 years my weight was up again. What I had done wasn’t sustainable and didn’t help me to permanently change my old food habits.
It wasn’t until I took my personal training certification and nutrition coaching that I realized how much I was struggling in the food department. I’ve always been active, but I really didn’t think that my diet was that bad! It turns out that what I really needed was proper nutrition education and guidance.
I learned that my food intake needed to be beneficial to me and my workouts, and that specific food should be eaten at certain times. The better choices I made on the plate, the better my performance was in the gym and in my races.
Turns out it’s all about finding that balance: creating healthier habits and not denying the things you like because you’ll end up eating more of it later. By 2013, I achieved that balance and I was stronger and fitter than I had ever been.
Then I got pregnant.
I was lucky to have a low risk and easy pregnancy. I was able to keep up with my workouts and stay active right up until the end. I gained 40lbs, which is a little high they say, but since I was active throughout and I didn’t think it would be that hard to lose it afterwards. I lost 20lbs right away but then I was at that 160lbs again. My back, hips, and core took a beating; post recovery wasn’t at all what I was expecting.
I couldn’t workout out the same way I used to and so I got frustrated and a little depressed. What do you know, those bad eating habits creeped back in. Call it hormones from breast feeding or maybe I was just having a pity party, but I wasn’t doing well.
Thank goodness for my support system. Family and friends, some of which are my fitness and nutrition coaches, helped me work with my limitations and mind set. It took over a year but I lost another 15lbs, just in time to get pregnant again…
My second pregnancy was not as kind as the first. Morning sickness, low energy, back pains you name I had it. I was not able to workout as much so I did what I could. I would love to say it turned out all ok in the end but unfortunately that was not the case. On June 22nd 2017 I delivered my second daughter still born at just over 36 weeks. These things just happen they say, no real reason. Wasn’t anything I did and was not my fault. Most likely the umbilical cord was cut off, but we will ever know for sure. Talk about the world imploding on it self. I was left with a body that wasn’t my own and suck in emotional turmoil. I could of spiraled into post partum depression so much more easily if it wasn’t for the amazing support system around me. I then dove right into my own postnatal rehabilitation and created my very own program. Here I was left with a postnatal mind and body but no baby. I needed to rehabilitate more than ever. I came to the conclusion I needed to help as many postnatal woman as I could. Life likes to throw up road blocks but I am a different person because of it. Forced me to make different choices and see things in a new light. Its ok to take on a new path even if it’s a little untraveled and scary. I get it!
Whether your dealing with loss, injury, work, family or you yourself are postnatal just going through the motions. You are not alone and I am here to help you. I want to use my experiences to give you the tools and guidance you need to feel great and be the best possible you.
You cannot expect to do it on your own – I haven’t. I’ve had, and still have, my cheerleaders to help me through it all. Let me be yours.